my hs best friend ching texted me the other day to say na sana may tumor sya sa brain sa "midline of the hypothalamus," sa part where our memories are connected. para if the doctors cut off the tumor, may 1% chance lang na mare-retain ang memory.
her text message clearly indicated that she wants to forget something or someone but couldn't. and that nasobrahan na siya sa kakanood ng grey's anatomy. :)
sagot ko naman sa kanya, ako, i wanna meet the haitian in heroes. iyong tipong hahawakan lang niya ulo mo, mabubura na ang memory mo. plus you can choose kung anong memory ang ipapabura mo...
yes... i also want to forget something or someone... getting there, getting there... although i could use some help from the haitian. san ko siya mahahanap?
speaking of getting there, nakita ko sa trailer ng movie ni piolo at regine iyong famous line na "im getting there..."
kasi, regine asked piolo, "mahal mo ba ako?" and he answered, "im getting there..."
pero sa latter scenes, he said, "i never got there!"
last week lang, ching texted me, "lam mo, i think he (sb) tried to love you kaya nangyari yun. d nya lang talaga nakuhang mahalin ka."
ano iyun, pakunswelo?
i dont know what's worse... to realize that sb never loved me, or that he tried but he just didn't get there?
pero it should not matter now, di ba? sabi nga sa kanta, we're living separate lives. he's happy with his. and im trying to be happy with mine.
while channel surfing last weekend, i chanced upon the movie, frankie and johnny sa hbo. although i already saw it and i have an orginial vcd copy, i still watched it. i cried. so what else is new?
ching told me she's always crying while watching grey's (nasa first season pa lang sya). i told her that was what i did, too, when i was watching grey's last year. iyak lang ako ng iyak. therapeutic iyun, pramis.
mabalik sa frankie and johnny, these lines from michelle pfeiffer encapsulate everything im feeling right now...
"i'm afraid. i'm afraid to be alone, i'm afraid not to be alone. i'm afraid of what i am, what i'm not, what i might become, what i might never become. i don't want to stay at my job for the rest of my life but i'm afraid to leave. and i'm just tired, you know, i'm just so tired of being afraid..."
song of the moment: last request by paolo nutini
quote of the day: iyong sinabi ni frankie/michelle *turo sa taas*
what i learned recently: life is like a tv show or a movie. but you have the power to choose what kind of life you will be living ... comedy, drama, horror or fantasy. :)