a couple of days ago, while i was reading the bittergirl book, i remember this story that happened several years ago. clarissa mentioned about it in my multiply and i was prodded to write about it here...
one afternoon, i was reading a book outside our house in bulacan. may dumaan na guy and he said, "hi, noreen." i looked up and saw a familiar face. i gave a wry smile, trying to remember who he was. it took me a couple of seconds to realize na it was my ex-boyfriend. how could i forget that guy??? ilang gabi ko siyang iniyakan after we broke up. tapos, hindi ko man lang maalala kung sino siya?
i immediately texted all my friends and recounted what just happened. that moment, i knew, i was over him and that i have moved on...
"you know you're really over someone when you realized that you'd rather sleep than take the opportunity of being alone with him," i remember writing this in my blog three years ago. i was talking about another guy, who gave me my worst heartache (this was before sb so i thought it was my worst heartache).
sobrang devastated ko rin noon sa guy na ito, to the point na tinuktok ko ang sarili ko with my boots kasi i couldn't stop thinking about him when i should have moved on. for more than two years, i spent countless nights crying over him. muntik na nga ako masagasaan ng bus dahil wala ako sa sarili habang tumatawid sa kakaisip sa kanya. and then it happened... i got over him.
now i can be with this guy, share a drink with him and even talk about what happened to us casually. natatawa na lang ako kapag nababasa ko ang mga diary entries na sinulat ko before tungkol sa kanya. that time, i never thought i'd be able to move on. but i did. he's one of my good friends now and we can exchange beso, talk about anything and hang out together, without a trace of the heartache he once caused me.
my point is, this has happened before. it will happen again... one day, may maikukuwento din akong defining moment kung saan masasabi ko na i am through with sb. hindi pa ngayon pero i know, soon...
ladies night sa red box every tuesday for the whole month of june. so claring and i had videoke for five hours. yup, five hours. ang saya kumanta ng alanis and sheryl crow songs. but then i broke down when i sang diane reeves' "land of the loving." muntik na rin ako maiyak while singing senti classics, "someone that i used to love" and "broken-hearted me." pero hopeful ako when i sang rascal flatts' "god blessed the broken road." sabi ko kay claring, iyong ang magiging wedding song ko. pati na land of the loving.
song of the moment: deep in the night love is growing / though i had no way of knowing / that when i found you i found ev'rything i need / here in your love i'll be staying / fin'lly my life won't be living all alone / here in the land of the loving i am home - land of the loving, diane reeves.
quote for the day: "today could be the last day you will let him and your past heartaches determine your future happiness. happy independence day," text sa akin ni jan. ;)
what i learned recently: lea salonga and monique wilson sang the same song during their audition for miss saigon in the early 1990s. i learned about it here. click niyo, dami niyo malalaman dito na ikakagulat niyo.