Friday, June 11, 2010

40 days....

pang 40 days ng Tatay ko ngayon. 40 days pa lang since he passed away. pero parang ang tagal na since i last held his hand, since i last hugged him, since i last talked to him...

sometimes, i'd still text him. parang he is there lang in davao and he never really left. and sometimes, i'd talk to him wherever i am. parang hangin lang siya, he is everywhere.

i really miss my tatay. there are days when i'm okay but there are days when i suddenly remember him, when a scent, a sight, a sound would bring back his memories. and then i'd cry. walang pinipiling oras.

one time, i was in a creative meeting. a co-writer mentioned, "malapit na pala ang father's day." and then the pain and the loss came back. hindi ko napigilan... i just cried.

the pain of losing a parent never goes away. and hindi ako naniniwala that one can get used to it... it remains. ke one year or twenty years na silang patay. masakit pa rin...

ika-40 days ng Tatay ko ngayon. sabi ng mga matatanda, ito na daw iyong aalis na sa lupa ang kaluluwa ng namatay. and then he goes to his final destination...

starting today, my tatay will be watching over me from heaven. i just need your prayers for his eternal peace, eternal rest, and eternal joy. i know my tatay is in a much better and happier place :)

1 comment:

ILAI said...

Yes, he is in a better place na walang pain. And you always have my prayers.